Stephanie Phillips is a London-based freelance journalist and content writer, specialising in music, race and feminism.
While searching through the many random photos on my hard drive I came across a to do list I made for one of my many other blogs that never get updated. I have so many episodes of Don’t Tell The Bride and The Only Way is Essex to laugh at that I always forget to update my smaller blogs.
I have one blog about my general life that has lost steam and regained steam only to lose it five minutes later about twenty times this year and a blog about the dictionary and current events that was never going to take off.
Anyway I digress, I made a to do list (pictured below) to try and get myself out the jobless, self-pitying hole I had got myself stuck in and it’s kinda funny to see what I’ve achieved and what I still need to work on.
1. Actually go to the gym instead of talking about it
After putting on pounds, and I mean pounds, from eating bread every day at work I finally decided to join the gym a few months ago. Everyone hates the gym but it’s a necessary evil. If I was left to my own devices I’d sit and eat cakes till explode. That would be incredibly messy so instead I choose to go to the gym a few times a week.
2. Finally make the zine I’ve been talking about for the last five months
I lied when I wrote that. I’ve actually been thinking about making a zine since I was about 18. My idea for a zine was called TOKEN and it would focus on black, used in the political sense, artists and musicians. A few months ago I had a brainwave and started writing half of the zine but then got distracted and gave up. Just writing about it has got me excited so hopefully I’ll try and get that finished soon.
3. Save up some money and travel more without turning into a middle class twat
Can you tell I’m a working class girl trying a bit too hard to resist the inevitable change into becoming middle class. The problem with this resolution is that I never have any money and I never have any time to travel. This is something I’m trying to rectify every day to no avail. Hopefully by next year I’ll have enough money to at least visit Paris and not that a trip to the seaside would do me.
4. Worry less
Oh how I have FAILED on this one and it’s not going to change anytime soon.
5. Get a real job instead of ‘interning’
Well I have finally managed to do that but only two days ago. I have been applying for jobs since I graduated from university in 2009 and two years later I finally got one so what can I say, perseverance is my middle name.
6. Record the songs that have been floating around in my head for a while
After replying to an advert on a message board I formed a band with some pretty cool people. It’s definitely better to play with other people rather than play by yourself in your bedroom. We’ve written quite a few songs, as bands do, and overall I’m pretty proud of us. We all think our number one hit is just around the corner.
7. Try harder
As I said, I waited two years to get a proper job. I applied for jobs every day and always tried to adapt myself to the changing market so I would say that I tried hard enough.
8. Read more zines
I have been to a few more zine festivals and symposiums but in general I failed this one.
9. Go to more gigs
I love live music and I’ve definitely made the effort to go to more gigs than I did before. Have tickets to see Throwing Muses in November so all is well on the gig front.
10. Realise that failure is a part of life
Hmm…I hate this one. It’s such a emo statement but it’s also probably true and something I should have accepted a long time ago.
Overall I think 5 out of 10 ain’t bad considering it’s my life and all. Anyway, I’ve got plenty of time to do the rest of the list.